All Joy and No Fun

I found this article recently printed in the New York Magazine about how having children makes you less happy.

It is hard to disagree with their scientific studies, and there are pieces that I completely agree with. All in all, I thought it was a pretty interesting read.

I've only been a mom for a touch over 3 months and although my little man makes me happy as can be and I love doing things with him, there are times when I feel like he is such a joy, but parenting is no fun. Those moments mostly revolve when I'm washing bottles for the umpteenth time of the day...

The one part I strongly agree with is that the societal demands of America have made parenting a job. Even though everything you read when you are pregnant (and even after) says not to compare your child to others because all children develop at their own rate, it quickly goes out the window once you start parenting. We are a competitive society. You want the best kids and you want to be the best parent. I love talking, singing, and playing with Jacob but, sometimes it does feel like a job since I'm constantly thinking of what to do next and how it will help him instead of simply having fun with it.

The article also mentions that parents spend more time with their children now then they did in 1975 and have less free time. Although parents crave more free time they still feel like they don't spend enough time with their children or do enough for them. I understand this, and have had long conversations with Michael about how I hate that I only have about 3 waking hours with Jacob every week day, but I don't (yet) feel the need for more free time. Michael and I have made a point to still have time to relax together once Jacob is asleep and we've been on several date nights. As long as we keep that up I think all will be good on that aspect.

Michael and I pretty much got our partying done in college and once we started dating easily transitioned through time into homebodies. One of our favortie things to do is have friends over for game nights and family functions. Because of this, having a child is not too much of a life change for our social life.

Also we are both kids at heart. Even before having a kid I can't count how many visits we've made to Toys R Us and the toy department of Target. We took our niece to the Children's Museum mostly for our enjoyment. And we know our park and the playground equipment on it better than any family with three kids in the neighborhood. In fact, for my birthday last year Michael took me to the circus. At this stage in Jacob's life we can't really do all these things with him, but the anticipation is killing us and it definitely won't be a chore to tote him to the zoo, museums or splash parks, it will be the highlight.

So Much for Sleep

The above was taken a while ago, but is a glorious picture of a sleeping baby.

For the past several weeks Jacob has been sleeping from about 9:30PM to 6:30AM, and we loved every minute of it. In fact, we may have loved it too much and became a bit spoiled by it.
Our friends have a baby that sleeps about 12 hours and you have to wake her up in the morning, but we were just happy to get 6-9 hours of steady sleep from Jacob.

All was good until 4th of July weekend. Friday morning started with the same routine of getting up and fed a little after 6, but then because I didn't have to go into work until later I stayed home with Jacob, until Michael got off early and took the afternoon shift. Even without being at daycare, the schedule seemed about the same.

Saturday brought lots of errands (all the stuff I normally spread out over the week while I was home with him, but now need to squish into the weekend). Little Man spent most the day in his carrier in the back of the truck, on top of a shopping cart or at the frogen yogurt shop. We had a couple hours at home followed by a dinner out with a friend and his daughter (who now calls Jacob her boyfriend) and a quick stop at their house.

That was the END of our glorious routine.

After a 4 day weekend for Jacob I learned it is not easy to just take breaks from a routine and ask him to go back to his good habits that we had just spent several days ruining.

Our new routine still starts at the same time every evening that it did in the past, but has a few more interruptions throughout the night. By a few more interruptions...I mean about 4 to 5 short ones, or 2 long ones, or any combination of that.

After waking up at 2:30 to sooth Jacob and keep putting his pacifier in for an hour I was just starting to fall back asleep around 3:30. Then at 4 he started squirming again and was settled in about 10 minutes. Then at 4:30 he started squirming again and 15 minutes into that I gave up and let him sit in his swing vowing to let Michael deal with the next one even if I had to punch him to wake up.

The only problem with this plan is that when Jacob gets to the noise level that wakes Michael it means Jacob is wide awake and no longer in his half sleep area. And if he fully wakes up after midnight he realizes he's hungry and needs to be fed RIGHT NOW! So poor Michael soothed Jacob while I made a bottle and then I finally got a 30 minute nap while Michael fed him.

After several nights of this routine I was cranky this morning. That lasted until I got a shower and woke up a bit, then I felt like the worst mom on Earth because I had pushed off helping my son and gotten cranky with him.

Even when Jacob was only sleeping hour stretches I never did that. I know he can't help it yet and he is too young to spoil right now. If he cries he needs us, and most his night fussiness is due to gas which I know is painful for him. I can't help but think if I didn't have to wake up to go to work - if Jacob was my job - that wouldn't have happened last night.

I'm looking forward to getting Jacob back in his schedule, especially if there is any chance of me feeling comfortable with moving him to the crib. Most of all though I'm looking forward to being done with the mall and having a couple weeks of full-time Jacob duty before starting the next adventure.

A New You

When you get pregnant, or even start thinking about having a child, you know it will change your life. Everyone reminds you of this constantly by saying, "Oh, things will never be the same for you." And it is all very true, but not in the ways you would think.

I knew it would mean more nights in which isn't a problem because Michael and I love having people over.
I knew it would mean less sleep. (This has hit me harder than I expected.)
I knew it would mean more responsibility, and making decisions (both small and large) in your life based on what would be best for the little one.

The thing I didn't realize was how easily these changes happen to you, and how I love who I am as a mom.

1) Anyone who knows me, especially as a kid and teen, knows I hate to clean. I love a clean house, but the chore of getting there has absolutely no appeal to me. However, lastnight while sitting on the couch folding Jacob's laundry for the second time in a week, I realized I love doing his laundry. I love gathering all of his bibs and burp cloths from every room in the house, using his special allergen free soap, folding all his laundry. I don't know if it is because it makes me think of how much he has grown when I fold up an outfit to store because he can't fit it anymore; or if it just excites me that all his stuff is clean and ready for him. A very strange change for me, especially since it extends to my stuff too - we both have tidy rooms now and are trying to go clutter free.

2) I cut coupons. This may just be due to the fact that I want to stay home with him and know that every cent helps that, but it didn't happen until Jacob arrived. Michael laughs at it, especially the other day when he ran out to get dog food and I reminded him that I had a coupon he should take.

3) I could go all day just talking about Jacob. This is something I limit because I know people without kids could care less, and people with kids will pretend to listen but really just want to tell you about their kid.

4) I never knew how much you could love someone. I love Michael and my family with all my heart, but with Jacob it is different. I wouldn't say I love him more, but maybe I just think about how I would do anything for him more often. I don't get excited when Michael burps or farts, but when Jacob does it I get a smile on my face because I know it makes him feel better. There isn't really a way to describe this one, it just is what it is.

And lastly:

5) Perhaps something I knew before, but really take to heart now; treasure the small things. Although this easily pertains to Jacob (and how he'll wake up for a feeding at some horrible hour in the night and all I want to do is feed him and put him back to bed - but then while I'm waiting for him to burp he starts wanting to work on his sitting and we stay up for a couple hours because it is so much fun and a moment I don't want to lose) it is also the small moments like a comment from a family member or a look from Michael, or even a kiss from Scoot that mean so much to me and make me realize how great life is.

I'm sure there are a lot of other changes (we're not even going to get into physical changes now) that I don't even realize happened, but I really do love who I've become in this mommy role.

3 Months

Earlier this week my little man celebrated his 3 Month birthday the same day I celebrated my birhtday. It made Michael and I realize that Jacob has the same month for his birthday as Michael and day as me. If that makes any sense to anyone else but us.

I can't believe how quickly these 13 weeks have gone by and how much Jacob has learned and grown. Some of the amazing things he can do now:

- He loves, loves, loves to sit. Not by himself, but he is definitely working on it. For the past week or so, whenever Jacob is sitting in a lap he grabs on to your fingers and pulls himself into a sitting position. This game can last for up to 30 minutes.

- Not only does he like to sit with help, but he also likes to stand like this too. If sitting gets boring Jacob loves for you to lift your hands a bit so he can pull up into a standing position. Although this game doesn't last as long since it takes so much work, it makes him just as happy.

- Toys finally exist. Since the beginning of this month Jacob has been batting at the toys on his bounce chair and play mat, but didn't care for anything else. Now he really likes to grab on to toys and explore them.

- His hands are always in his mouth. There is no stutter on getting those hands to his mouth anymore, it is a very smooth move to get his hand up and in, and sometimes two hands is better than one.

- No longer do we have to cradle Jacob when we cary him around the house, instead he'd rather be held upright with his head over your shoulder. Throughout the month his neck has gotten much stronger which is nice for me because it means less of his head falling different directions and hitting me in the mouth.

- He's not so quiet anymore. Our boy can talk! Going to restaurants has been so easy with Jacob because he either sleeps or looks around quietly. I think this month/birthday marks the end of that phase. On Monday Michael came up to my office so I could go to lunch with him and Jacob. At the restaurant Jacob wanted to be the star of the conversation and thought yelling would be the best way to accomplish this. He wasn't angry at all, just had a lot to say and thought the quiet restaurant was the best place to let everyone know.

- Mirrors are the best. This isn't new, he has loved mirrors since the beginning, but it is still his favorite thing on the play mat. He just lays there and talks to himself. I also got a larger mirror to help him with tummy time. The idea is he will forget how much he hates tummy time because he's too busy looking at himself...it isn't perfect, but is helping and he is getting better and better with tummy time.

- He's driving!!!! Actually, he let us sit him in his ATV Walker for a bit. It was just too cute.

And lastly, a cute picture done on the 4th of July of Jacob playing with his favorite toy during the fireworks.

286 Days

286 days until Jacob turns 1. It is a bit early to start celebrating, but kind of exciting. Jacob has only been here for a little under 3 months, but already he has done so much.
1) In this past week he took his first trip. We managed the airports and actually didn't forget anything. He was such a trooper on the plane - nobody even knew there was a baby on board.
2) He attended his first wedding, once again the best baby possible. During the rehearsal he didn't even let the trumpets borrow, however during the wedding he was a bit upset that we didn't sit him up to see what was going on. During the reception everyone stopped us to say how wonderful he was. (We had to agree!)
3) Although I don't like having to buy clothes in a larger size, I love the fact that Jacob no longer fits almost any of his new born outfits. In fact he is wearing 3 month khakis today with a golf shirt and looks like a big kid!
4) The smiles are amazing. The first few were sweet and now that he does it all the time every day it makes you feel like a good parent.
5) Jacob says "I love you." It sounds nuts, but is so true. A couple weeks ago I was playing with Jacob when he mumbled "I love you." I told Michael and he looked at me like I was crazy. Fastforward to the past weekend in Georgia - we were in our room changing Jacob when he did it again. We made him repeat for about an hour until finally letting him go to bed. I know he doesn't know what it means, and that it is not truly saying it, but for that to be the first thing he repeats must means that he hears it all the time and hopefully he realizes how truly loved he is.
6) Sleep! Sleep is a glorious thing. I was a horrible sleeper before I had Jacob and would push myself to exhaustion about once a month, however with Jacob I learned how to nap and fall asleep at 8PM because he kept me on my toes and sleep just didn't exist anymore. He now steadily goes 6-7 hours between his last feeding and the next morning one. There is usually one 15 minute stretch where he needs to be calmed, but still so much better than getting up ever 1 1/2 hours.
7) It's small, but from the day Jacob came home he has been great at tracking objects with his eyes. In just the past week he started turning his head to follow things. Not only does he move his head to see things, but he has also realized he can move his head so he sits and turns his head all around just to try it out.
8) Jacob is on a mission to see how many fingers he can get in his mouth. Sometimes one hand, sometimes both hands. There is just nothing better in the world to him.

He has a neck!

At Jacob's 2 month appointment he didn't want to show the doctor that he could easily raise his head when on his tummy. From that day forward we dramatically increased the amount of tummy time we did each day. We wanted to make sure he aced that development test at the next appointment.
That plan didn't quite work. I'd put him down on top of me, flat on the mat, pillow on the mat, over a mirror... every combination possible, but all he wanted to do was suck his fingers and kick his legs.
Last night Michael put Jacob on hi chest and what do you know - he held up his head! I kept trying and got the smallest lift, but nothing substantial. All of a sudden this afternoon I put him on my chest and he kept his head up high almost the entire time.
He's sitting up in his Bumbo and holding his head up, he'll be crawling around before we know it.

2 Months and a some

Jacob Tiger has reached the 2 month mark. I can't believe my little boy is already 2 months, I feel like this next year, and probably many after that will fly by. Every single little developmental mark makes me so proud. You always think it is funny how people think their little one is advanced and so amazing, but I definitely fall in that group now.
In just the past couple weeks Jacob has started smiling more and more. It's a smile that can melt your heart. It doesn't take much to make him smile, just a rub on the cheek or silly face, but just to know that you can make him so happy is a great feeling. However, today all he wanted to do was sleep in my arms, but that doesn't feel too bad either.
The time awake now is a great change too. Jacob now takes two naps a day, one around 10 and one around 3. It helps me plan when I can get some stuff done and also gives us a lot of play time now. Even when I take him shopping he keeps his eyes open a bit longer now. The first time he did this was last week at Target and his eyes were just so big taking in all the colors.
Jacob also went to his first birthday party for a wonderful little (now) 3 year old. All anyone could say was how much the parties have changed now that we all have little ones - or have one on the way. We sat at the baby table with Claire, 3 weeks older, Jedi, 2 months older and Colt, who made a few appearances while running around and is 16 months old. Plus Justin and Karen with their little one that will make an appearance in about 5.5 months.

The sad part of hitting the 2 month mark is there isn't much time left until I have to go back to work. Luckily I have a plan, and 100% hope that it will all work out. I've become too addicted watching all the milestones we've hit so far to dare miss any future ones.

It has been awhile

I've forgotten to post for awhile now. Not actually forgotten, but thought about it and then ran off to do something else. A couple of the things I wanted to post.

1) A couple days ago I realized that even though Jacob can't talk, he does have a say in what he wears. If he doesn't like the cute outfit I put together for him he lets me know by finding a way to pee through his diaper. This doesn't happen all the time, but the other day he peed through every diaper I put on him as if he hated each outfit I chose until it was time to take a bath and put on his sleeper.

2) Another pee related post (since the majority of my day is spent with diapers now). Jacob loves bath time!!!! I highly, highly, HIGHLY, recommend the bath tub we have for Jacob. I don't know the name for it, but it gives you the temp of the water and a zone for what baby finds comfortable. Ever since we found batteries for the tub to actually get the thermometer to work he has loved bath time. And to the pee... now that he loves it so much; he pees every time he takes a bath. It is great because we don't have to clean it up in the tub, but it is so funny to see him smile as it happens.

3) Jacob went to his first movie this weekend! We have a drive in theater close and met up with some friends (one couple and their little one that is a few weeks older than Jacob, and another couple that announced to us they are expecting!!!!). Jacob didn't care for the movie nearly as much as he loved looking at the moon, but he was so good.
A quick meal during the slow part of the movie. Nap for the very last part of the first movie. Mommy and Daddy wanted to do the same about this time.

I want to go back when Marmaduke plays there, and this time we'll take Scoot ;)

A Side Note...

Monday is TV night in our house. It usually means a quick, easy dinner (frozen pizza) and then recording shows in both rooms since there are so many to watch.
Right now we're watching "24." Actually, it is getting a little gross right now so I'm on the computer with the show on in the background. The best part of this relaxing night though is the amazing part of my life on the couch.
Scoot has his normal spot on the couch facing the window, and beside him is Michael with a sleeping Jacob nestled against his shoulder.
I love Michael every day, but honestly there are a few moments where I feel like I couldn't love him anymore:
1) The day of our wedding. From before we saw each other that day and he was planning ways to break into the closed alterations store where my dress was stuck, seeing him as I walked down the aisle, letting loose at the reception, to the moment we left the reception as husband and wife.
2) Last night when Michael decided to do story time. Seeing him sitting in the glider while reading Petunia at the Bat was the most adorable thing and Michael melted my heart.
3) This moment now. He just looks so natural with Jacob, and with Scoot next to them it is my 3 favorite guys in one spot. So adorable.
I can't wait for more moments like this. Even though there isn't much sleep these days, I don't think I could ever ask for anything more.

Shake, Rattle and Roll

On Friday Michael and I tried to get Jacob excited about his toys since we now have to keep him entertained instead of nappy. We started with Sophie the giraffe and he fell asleep with his arm around her. Then we tried the rattle and he couldn't care less.
Sunday we tried again, and although the toys don't entertain him that much (however he does like mirrors now) he learned to hold on to his toys! I first noticed when he had pulled his pacifier out of his mouth and was so pissed that it wasn't in his mouth but I couldn't help because he was holding the pacifier in his hand and I was so proud of that. After getting agitated enough he dropped the pacifier and I replaced it in his mouth, and all was good in the world.
As I was getting ready for the day later on he was in my lap as I put make up on. He played with my mascara and an eye pencil, holding and swinging it all around. So cute!
Any way, below is a video of him with his rattle.

1 more month until our next appt

Today we had Jacob's 1 month doctor appointment to check his weight, and the appointment made me realize what a great doctor's office we chose. I will recommend them to everyone!

I got to our appointment about 15 minutes early and the office was completely dark. If I hadn't checked the appointment reminder card right before leaving the house I would have thought that I showed up on the wrong day and the office was currently closed, but then I remembered our first appointment and that showing up early to a 1 o'clock appointment means you are showing up while everyone is at lunch. So we signed in and waited for everyone to come strolling back.

It only took a few minutes and the receptionist came in and said hi, then two minutes later the nurse came to the door and called us back like old friends. As I got to the door he took Jacob's carrier for me and noted how big he is getting. That comment alone won me over since everyone else that meets Jacob says he is so small, it was nice hearing someone else notice his growth.

We got into the room and started the normal procedure as he told me how he and his wife were thinking of having another kid. It is such a friendly office, and not forced conversation like most offices.

Anyway, the important stuff:
Weight 8lbs 4.5ozs
Length 21.5 inches
Head 15 inches

His head was re-measured because he couldn't believe the growth in just a month. We have a smart baby :)

Dr. Anstee came in and was so proud of his weight gain. Even though he got off to a slow start she said he was putting on the weight perfectly now. She rolled him on his tummy and Jacob showed how strong he was raising his head twice for her. All looks good!

The only issues we have now:
1) He's starting to drool which although there are no teeth showing yet, means that teething is around the corner. Se we just need to keep an eye out for it.
2) Jacob likes to take cat naps now. No full naps. He starts to fuss and get sleepy, so I soothe him to sleep and then by the time I get ready to take a nap with him he wakes up. The doctor said I should keep him entertained when he wants to sleep to try and avoid the quick naps, and if he is really tired he'll ignore me and take a real nap. This should also help with teaching him the difference between night and day. Since he still wakes up several time through the night and takes forever to fall back asleep we're going to see if ending the cat naps helps. If he hasn't started sleeping through the night more by the next appointment in a month then she's going to teach us some tough love options to soothe him back to sleep instead of picking him up and feeding throughout the night.

Once the visit was done she reminded me about the vaccinations we start at the next visit and reminded me to call or email her if I had any issues or questions. So nice!

As we checked out the receptionist came from behind the counter to see Jacob and made me feel like a proud mom again. Then as we got ready to walk out she told us "Happy Mother's Day."

Michael and I chose this office the night before I went in to have Jacob and we really lucked out. I wish Dr. Anstee was my doctor too.

1 Month Old

I can't believe Jacob is already 1 month old. It seems like time is just flying by, and he's growing so fast.
It's strange when we go out shopping or to dinner and people comment on how small he is. He seems huge to me now, and so strong. We're still struggling with the whole sleeping at night thing, but during the day he doesn't sleep nearly as much. He wakes up fully around 11AM and never takes a full nap during the day anymore, but instead about a 20-30 minute nap every few hours.

Tomorrow we have our 1 month dr. appointment and I can't wait to see how much he weighs now. He's not quite as excited since it is the first appointment for vaccinations...poor thing.

On the night of his 1 month birthday Jacob gifted us with an explosive diaper. We were out celebrating Cinco de Mayo with a couple friends and I was holding Jacob just after a feeding. All of a sudden he let out a huge fart that was definitely a poop. I ran my hand across his back and felt a wet spot on his onesie. Lovely! I took him to the ladies' room for a quick diaper and outfit change. I figured it was about time we had our first...but then today he had another. I'm hoping this isn't the new trend for this month.

A little random for this, but while we were out last night I also met a very strange man. We were sitting in the lobby waiting for a table when this old man in overalls and a straw cowboy hat sat down next to me. He made a couple comments about how cute Jacob was and I smiled politely and said thank you. Then he asked, "Does he smoke cigars." I thought maybe he was just going crazy and laughed and said no. Then turned around which most people realize means the conversation is done. No kidding he kept talking til he got my attention and said, "I call the nipple a cigar." I smiled again and turned around again. Then he tapped me on the shoulder and once again asked, "so does he smoke cigars?" Conversation over! Jacob and I moved away and quickly engaged in the conversation of our friends.

Daily Play

Every day Jacob and I play the same activities. I seem to get some more enjoyment out of them than he does, but it will be for his benefit in the end.


A little bit of tummy time. It isn't his favorite activity, but he is quick to pick up on it and can move his head easily and pre-crawl like a champ. Before we know it he'll be running around the house chasing after Scoot.



This is one of Jacob's first few times practicing sitting in his Bumbo chair. His neck isn't strong enough for long periods of time in it, but he can handle a minute or so. Also, his attitude can't take being in it for more than a minute, but that will change too.

I'm going to be SOOOOOO Big!

Jacob doesn't like going more than a week without seeing his doctor. Everyone in the office is super nice and there is always someone in the waiting room to tell him how cute he is. It's the perfect place...if they would just stop sticking his heel with needles.
Last night Michael noticed some pus coming out of Jacob's belly button so we got hold of the doctor on call who told us to come in today. All is good. It's just a minor infection that we now have some ointment for and should be gone in about a week.
The best part of the appointment was what happened when we first got in the exam room though...I mean I'm very excited to find out that there is nothing to worry about with the infection, but his weight made me so happy.
After having to make sure he gets enough to eat and watching his weight so closely to make sure he got to his birth weight in two weeks, it was amazing to see that he had gained 10 ounces in just over a week! My baby boy will be 8 lbs in no time at all.
I'm looking forward to the end of feedings every two hours, but seeing him grow is just the best!!

Diaper Changes

Last night Michael took Jacob to see if he needed a diaper change, and came back out laughing. Apparently Jacob not only gave a little squirt this time during the change; this time he decided to go the distance and cover the wall, himself and changing table.
Scoot's lessons on marking your territory really got through to Jacob, and I found it hysterical.
Today I'm home alone with Jacob and decided to wake him up for a diaper change and figured it would be easy since he was so tired and out of it. I'm not sure if it is because I'm so tired too, or my mind just wasn't with it, but I didn't get the clean diaper unfolded and ready. As I unfolded the new diaper I looked down at Jacob to see a stream of pee flying up in the air and covering a good section of the wall.
I got the stream covered and was ready to move on when all of a sudden his farts were no longer just air and there was still no diaper down.
Now Jacob is in another outfit for the day and both changing pad covers are in the wash. Guess that's what I deserve for laughing at Michael.

Jacob is here!

A little late...just a week and a half. Time has flown by, but it is already impossible to imagine life without Jacob in it. It is absolutely amazing how much he develops each and every day.
Just a few things since Jacob arrived:

1) His Arrival
We checked in to the hospital at 5:30 AM and immediately got our labor room. They started the meds right away and let us get settled in. I was far enough along that the doctor could come in and break my water, we just didn't know when he would be heading over to the hospital. At one point the nurse said he may come around lunch, so I figured we'd be in for a long day, but he actually got there around mid morning and easily broke my water to get things started. With the amount of fluid I had he agreed with the nurse that I was lucky it didn't break out of the hospital since it would be really embarrassing with that much fluid. My contractions were right on top of each other, but it took a few more hours for the pain to start kicking in. When the nurse came to check in on me I still didn't have any pain, but she said the lady in the room next to me was getting her epidural so she was going to get me ready for it since it would be awhile for the anesthesiologist to get to me. She was right! The pain started and since my contractions were so close there was no time to rest in between them. I was so ready for the pain meds. Finally they came in and the epidural was not painful at all.
The only problem was once the medicine started kicking in Jacob's heartbeat plummeted. He was stressed from the intensity and speed of the contractions plus the medicine. They quickly flipped me to my side, hooked up the oxygen and gave me a shot of something. Finally his heartbeat went back to normal.
A couple hours later I could feel the contractions again but didn't want to push the button for more medicine because I was scared for Jacob. When the nurse came in I told her I could feel the contractions again and she gave me the go ahead to push the button once and wait 20 minutes to push it again. Of course as soon as I hit it Jacob's heartbeat went down again. The oxygen got it back to normal again, but I knew I definitely didn't want to hit the button again.
They checked my progress and the nurse was shocked that I was just about ready to push, so honestly it wasn't even up to me if I wanted more meds or not.
At that same time the lady in the room next to me started labor so my nurse had to go assist her and another nurse came in to check on me. I told her I felt pressure to push so she checked me again even though it had only been about 30 minutes and she said my feeling to push was the understatement of the year, Jacob was ready to arrive!
Pushing was so much harder than I ever thought it would be and I don't know how some people can do that for hours. I was exhausted and only had to do it for about 40 minutes.
The minute I saw him I was in love, and fell even more in love with him watching Michael run around the room following the nurses for pictures.
The birth was much easier than I thought it would be.

2) Gas
A couple months ago I was reading a newborn book and there was some section about gas and dirty diapers. I think it said something about how loud the farts are, and I told Michael that I thought it would be hilarious. Now with Jacob here, I can say that I was right. It is the funniest thing on Earth.
The second night home Michael and I were laying in bed with Jacob after a feeding, completely exhausted and ready for him to fall asleep. All of a sudden the silence was broken by the loudest fart you could ever imagine coming from a baby. I couldn't stop laughing.
The farts continue to be funny, even though they mean there is a dirty diaper or one on the way. In fact the farts are becoming even more funny because now they are accompanied by the most adorable faces.

3) Ahead of the Game
Jacob is a week and a half old now, and he is a genius. If not a genius he will definitely be a good athlete. Within the first several days Jacob could raise his head while burping him and turn from side to side. Since then he has been practicing his head movement by constantly lifting his head during burping sessions. Amazing, but a little scary now that he's spitting up more.
Also, at this stage babies should be able to see clearly 8 to 12 inches away from their faces. Jacob can follow fingers much further than that. He's amazing!

4) Doctor Visits
Jacob and I don't have compatible blood types so there was no way he was going to get away without having Jaundice. Poor little thing. This has caused extra doctor visits and even a return to the hospital to have his blood tested during the weekend. We're hoping that his levels have peaked, we at least know that it isn't going up very fast anymore, so that's a good thing. However, because of the amount of weight he lost right after birth and the Jaundice, we have to supplement his feeding with a couple of ounces of formula during each session...which has caused the increase of spitting up.
And just because we can't have things go smoothly Jacob and I now have back to back appointments on Friday because of an allergic reaction to my pain medication which has caused a lovely rash all over.

I'll get better about posting again. I've wanted to post for a while now about the things he does that make me laugh and shock me with how amazing a growing human can be, but there just hasn't been time or energy these past few days. Now that we're falling into a rhythm and I'm learning how to sleep during the day time naps :) I'll keep up!

Tomorrow we head up to Conroe to visit my office and a trip to Babies R' Us for a few small necessities (it's amazing how many diapers you go through)!

38 Weeks

I just went and checked on a charity event we have going on in the mall. I haven't seen our main contact in a couple months, but went up to say hi and ask her to let me in so I could take pictures. She stopped me at the door, started offering me a box to put the things I wanted to buy in and then started escorting me to the table to pay for entrance before saying, "Oh my gosh, I didn't even recognize you all pregnant."
It was much nicer than the guy I spoke to before who I have never spoken to before. His only comment was, "Looks like something has gotten in you," followed by, "bet it's girl."
I must admit, I'm a little excited to not have strangers make random comments on the way I look.
On that note, I've been on an emotional roller coaster with whether or not he'll arrive each day. I really think it's going to happen and I'll have all signs point to yes, plus contractions and then once again nothing. However, this weekend I think it is going to happen. In fact, I'm not sure I'll make it a full day in the office today just because I feel so blah and gross.

* How far along?: 38 weeks
* Total weight gain: Still at right about 25 pounds.
* How big is baby?: He's about 7 pounds 10 ounces right now based on the last ultrasound and normal growth. Also he should be about 20" and done growing in length, it's all about adding on fat now.
* Maternity clothes?: Yep
* Sleep?: About back to normal, up about 3 hours each night. The past couple nights I haven't been able to stay awake past 9:30
* Best moment this week?: Hearing the doctor say, "Any day now."
* Movement?: A lot less frequent, but a kick every now and then. Plus hiccups almost every night.
* Food cravings?: No real cravings this week
* Labor signs?: All of the 6 signs of labor (which just means in the next 4 weeks), plus another that supposedly means very soon labor and great progress from my exams.
* Belly button in or out?: I never knew how deep my belly button was, but I think we're nearing the end.
* What I'm looking forward to: (This will probably not change now) Having him here. Both Michael and I are very anxious to have him here.

Michael emailed me this morning that Scott (one of the outside sales reps he works with) called him at 8:05AM to tell him that Jacob would be born this weekend. He also did this to Brandon the day their daughter was born. I like the sign, but when I read it at first I thought he meant Scoot and was just being silly. That would be pretty amazing if Scoot were to call him and say that though.

Any Day Now - At least that's what I heard :)

Today was my 37 week appointment and it was a good one.

Before the appointment Michael asked me to not get upset if there was no progress. I let him know that my goal was 3 cm, I'd be happy with 2 cm, and upset if I heard that I was still 1 cm.

The doctor came in and we discussed a couple pains. I told him I think Jacob is really low and he just kind of brushed it off.

We started the exam and when Dr. White felt Jacob's head extremely low (just like I told him) he seemed surprised and quietly said it could be any day now. He didn't say it to us, but he definitely said it and even Michael heard it. The rest of the exam showed that I'm still only 1 cm, but I'm definitely thinning out as I'm not 50% effaced. To confirm what I heard during the exam I asked if he thought I would go to my due date which brought the official Dr. answer of, "well you won't go past your due date," and explained how if I start having contractions 5 minutes apart to not even bother calling the office but to just go ahead and go in to the hospital.

I know the official answer was some time in the next few weeks, but I heard him say "any day now," and that's the answer I'm sticking with.

So even though I'm still at 1 cm, I'm not upset. I'm extremely happy!!!!

Still Waiting

Friday morning brought a sign that labor should start within 72 hours. As of now it has been 48 hours and nothing to show.
We've done everything I can think think of to get things going and I'm starting to think none of this will help until he has finally decided to come. Yesterday we even walked just over two miles at the mall and it didn't even bring on more than a couple contractions.
Oh well, I guess it will happen soon enough.

37 Weeks - Full Term

This is going to be short and sweet because I'm in a hurry to transfer some files and clean my desk so I can go home.
Last night I started getting a really crampy feeling that just hasn't gone away. There have been a lot of B/H contractions to go with it and several "true" contractions that hurt. I just want to get out of the office before it gets worse. Really hoping this is the start of something that will end this weekend, because I will not be a happy camper if this lasts for a few weeks.

* How far along?: 37 weeks
* Total weight gain: Still at right about 25 pounds.
* How big is baby?: He's about 6 pounds 10 ounces right now based on the last ultrasound and normal growth. Also he should be about 20" and done growing in length, it's all about adding on fat now.
* Maternity clothes?: Yep
* Sleep?: About back to normal, up about 3 hours each night.
* Best moment this week?: I don't know, maybe going to class
* Movement?: He's back to giving kicks so that I know he's ok
* Food cravings?: Comfort Foods and pineapple
* Labor signs?: A lot more contractions and an overall crampy feeling
* Belly button in or out?: I never knew how deep my belly button was, but I think we're nearing the end.
* What I'm looking forward to: (This will probably not change now) Having him here. Both Michael and I are very anxious to have him here.

Busy weekend and a steak

I guess this weekend wasn't really that busy, but it included two long activities.
On Saturday we had our 4 hour childbirth class. Because we found the information they sent us to prepare for the course so boring, we rented a childbirth class DVD and spent Saturday morning finishing up pieces of that. Even though the DVD was from the late 80's or early 90's with great high waisted khakis, it was funny when our instructor went over some of the same materials with the same facts. My favorite part though was practicing the massage.
The tour of L&D was nice even though Michael and I had already been through half of it. When we stopped to see the triage room everyone went in to peek but us.
Today was the 1960 St. Patty's Day Parade. Luckily it was sunny out, but it was so freaking hot.
Anyway, the biggest part of the weekend is I decided I wanted a steak for dinner and not just the little filet I normally eat. Tonight I ate a large T-Bone steak! Not only did I eat it, but I devoured it.

36 Weeks

Today is officially 36 weeks which means they wouldn't stop us now if Jacob decided he wanted to be a St. Patty's baby. Today is also in my head 37 weeks which is full-term! So now I think everything is a sign that maybe he'll be coming soon. If he decides to be on time or late there is a good chance I'll go crazy.
We've made progress for Jacob's arrival! Michael has a carseat set up in his truck and I have half a hospital bag packed!

* How far along?: 36 weeks
* Total weight gain: Still at right about 25 pounds. (Last night Michael and I were watching a childbirth class movie because the online class part to prep us for our class Saturday is so boring and it listed 6 signs your body is getting ready to go into labor. As soon as she said that one of the signs is your body weight stabalizes or even loses a pound or two, Michael looked at me and confirmed that I'd been at the same weight for the past week or two.)
* How big is baby?: He's about 6 pounds 6 ounces right now based on the ultrasound last week and normal growth. Also he should be about 20" and done growing in length, it's all about adding on fat now.
* Maternity clothes?: Yep
* Sleep?: Wednesday night there wasn't much since I was worried about Jacob moving, but other than that not too bad. I only have to get up to pee about once or twice a night and when I wake up for that I spend about 20 minutes debating if I really need to get up.
* Best moment this week?: Watching Michael watch the contractions. During the video last night they showed a chart of what pre-labor and labor contractions looked like and Michael explained to me that I had a mix of both.
* Movement?: He's back to giving kicks so that I know he's ok
* Food cravings?: Comfort Foods and pineapple
* Labor signs?: Strong BH Contractions, but nothing steady for too long. Plus I have 4 of the 6 pre-labor signs :)
* Belly button in or out?: Still very flat, and getting ready to poke out I think. Stay in!
* What I'm looking forward to: (This will probably not change now) Having him here. Both Michael and I are very anxious to have him here. +Class tomorrow +Even though we haven't decided if we're going yet, the St. Patty's parade is this weekend.

Self Guided L&D Tour

Early this morning I got up to pee as usual, went back to bed, laid on my left side and had some water. Then I waited for Jacob to kick like normal, but he just wouldn't.
Because for the past couple months his mid-night bouncing around has become so normal, this all of a sudden stall scared me a bit. I decided to grab a juice box from the fridge thinking maybe my water wasn't cold enough or the sugar in the juice may help wake him up a bit. Still there was tiny movement.
I started trying to nicely wake Michael up to let him know I was scared and had made the decision that I wanted to go get it checked out. I thought I was being nice waking him up by scratching his back, but he later told me that he was getting ready to snap at me for rubbing his back so hard it was waking him up. He finally rolled over and I explained what was going on and we got ready to go.
Our childbirth class is on Saturday, so the only thing I knew about L&D was that it was somewhere on the 2nd floor.
We walked in to the reception area and asked the concierge where exactly to go, which was a simple 2nd floor, to the left and something about double doors. So after searching all the doctor's offices we decided the first door we saw labeled Birthing and Surgery was actually where we wanted to be. Because it was too early they didn't have anyone at the desk, just a note that said what extension to call. We called L&D which led to more directions and something else about double doors. As soon as we walked in all I saw was double doors and was completely lost again. Luckily, we found our way :)
I explained our reason for being there to the nurse who's only question was, "Why are you monitoring movement at 3:30AM." I guess that's not normal for most.
The nurse hooked me up to a fetal heart monitor and contraction monitor. Michael enjoyed the contraction monitor. At one point he told me the line was going up as I felt my stomach start to tighten. About 10 minutes later I let him know that there would be another bounce in it so he got up to watch. It was funny because I told him this one was really strong and he confirmed it for me by letting me know it went three times as high as the last one.
Once they were happy with the heartbeat being steady we were released, and the nurse said she would probably see us in a couple weeks. Not sure how you can tell off of heartbeat and contraction readings, but it makes me happy!
When we got home Scoot ran straight to Jacob's crib and sniffed around like he wanted to see if he was here.
So all in all, Jacob is good and Michael knows he'll have fun watching the contractions when we go in for real.

Holy Contractions

My Braxton Hicks contractions are getting stronger, and there may be some real ones mixed in.

Since last night I've been having regular contractions about 7 minutes apart. They aren't incredibly painful, just uncomfortable. I can talk, breathe and walk through them...so no biggie and just hope that it is happening soon because I'm tired of waiting.

In the mix of these normal "fake" contractions I think there may have been two real ones. One last night and one this morning. They are a bit stronger and I can feel my entire stomach tighten up to a squeezing sensation.

Our childbirth class is this Saturday and my next appointment is Wednesday. I'd really like to take the class before things get going too much. However, just as a precaution, Michael and I are packing the hospital bags tonight and installing at least one of the car seats.

35/35!

Today is 35 weeks done and 35 days to go! Too bad I can't celbrate with a margarita :)

Although Jacob has been a week ahead for pretty much the entire pregnancy - I went and checked all the past ultrasounds where they put what week the ultrasound has him at and since the first one at 8 weeks, the ultrasound measurements had him at 9 weeks - I'm still keeping this on the same week track I've been on. Mostly because I didn't want to skip my 35/35. However, in my head I convert it every now and then to make it seem closer.

Michael went golfing this past weekend and left Scoot and I at home.

To entertain ourselves and make Scoot feel like a star we had a photo shoot in the backyard. Below is my favorite shot.

And also one from when he decided we were done.

Lastly, not a great belly shot, but at least it is something. This weekend we might go to a festival so hopefully I'll get some better pictures. I don't feel like I look this large, but the picture seems to show a pretty large person.

* How far along?: 35 weeks

* Total weight gain: Still at right about 25 pounds.

* How big is baby?: "My Pregnancy" say he is 18 inches and about 5.25 pounds. According to the ultrasound this week though he is 5lbs 10oz and should be gaining half a pound each week, which would put him at about 5lbs 14oz right now.

* Maternity clothes?: The shirt in the picture above is not maternity, but most my maternity tops even have to be pulled down every now and then to cover the elastic part of my pants now. I don't feel like buying new stuff for a few weeks though.

* Sleep?: I think I'm starting to wake Michael up with my moving around when trying to get comfy. So now both of us aren't sleeping well.

* Best moment this week?: Our ultrasound even though we didn't get great pictures (I seriously don't even know what the pictures she handed us were of, he's too squished).

* Movement?: Not nearly as painful in the ribs anymore. From the ultrasound she was able to tell me the movement I feel on my right is his feet and in the upper middle of my stomach is his butt. When he kicks out hard and keeps his foot stretched I can't feel it is a foot, but I can feel the body part.

* Food cravings?: Comfort Foods and back to the red meat. Oreo shakes, churros and pizza (guess I'm not too worried about the weight now)

* Labor signs?: Strong BH Contractions, but nothing steady for too long.

* Belly button in or out?: Still very flat.

* What I'm looking forward to: (This will probably not change now) Having him here. Both Michael and I are very anxious to have him here.

Sweetest Moment of the Week: Yesterday I was at the grocery store and this random lady walking by me in the aisle told me I look cute pregnant. Much nicer than the ones that still try to run you over with their cart.

34 Week Appt

This morning was our last ultrasound appointment before delivery. We got the same ultrasound tech that did our very first ultrasound, so that seemed fitting. She was really sweet and took her time even though he's so squished in there that we couldn't see much.
With the 3D ultrasound we did several weeks ago, Jacob wouldn't stop covering his face with his arm, and he went right back to doing that this time too. It wasn't quite as much, but he definitely likes covering his face.
Other than that...
- He's still a boy! Michael thought to ask at the end and she assured us that he flashed her a couple times so there is no question there.
- Fluid levels are good.
- He weighs 5lbs 10oz and should gain about a half pound a week. My math skills aren't that great, especially when I have to do it in my head so Michael informed me that if he came on his due date he would be about 7lbs. However, now that I have a pen and paper, it looks like if he came on his due date he would be almost 9lbs, if he were to come at full-term 37 weeks then he'd be 7lbs. Here's hoping he comes early!
- His head is way down, and he's in perfect position.
- Heartbeat during the ultrasound was 131 bpm. Starting to slow down and going good.

The doctor part of the appointment was pretty standard. He measured my stomach and said all was good. There is now some room in my upper stomach which gives Jacob plenty of room to kick around and allows me to breathe a bit easier now. The scorching/stabbing pain I have in my upper abs is of course normal and common. Just the muscles still coming apart and once again the only cure is delivery. I'm very ready to be able to go back to slight headaches that can be cured with medicine instead of strange new symptoms where all you hear is, "it's going to get worse but will be cured once the baby is delivered."
Once we were leaving the office Dr. White went to update our file and noticed we had an ultrasound. So he pulled up the results and said all looked fine. Jacob is measuring a week ahead (more hope for an earlier arrival) and is in the 50th precentile.

Our next appointment is on St. Patrick's Day. My doctor will be on vacation, but I still have to go in that week and will see the midwife that I saw for an appointment early on in the pregnancy. This will be the start of my weekly appointments and also the start of watching for signs of labor. Yea!

Little Legs

I love all the adorable outfits Jacob has gotten!
The other day I was reading about dressing your baby and making sure they stay warm. One thing that the mom's on the board said is that pairing onesies with Baby Legs kept the baby's legs warm and still made diaper changing easy. After the shock that one pair could was $16, I checked Etsy and found several vendors with much more reasonable prices.
Jacob now has 5 pairs to keep his little legs warm!
*These aren't the ones Jacob got, but just to show how cute they are.

34 Weeks

Not to jump ahead, but I'm very excited that next week is 35/35 (35 weeks and 35 days left). That's crazy! Soon we'll have our baby boy!
The only big thing this week is Jacob has unofficially dropped. This is unofficial because there is a chance I don't know what I'm talking about and I have to wait until Wednesday to have the doctor confirm. The good thing if he really has dropped though is it means he's head down and in the right direction.
A couple days ago I was getting ready for work and told Michael to look at me because I think he had dropped. All I got back was a "I don't know" face and some sort of mumble. Then throughout the day it was hard to walk and I have to pee more than ever. Plus he isn't as caught up in my ribs, and I'm not short of breath anymore which makes me extremely thankful.
When I slouch at work or in the car though I can still feel a little bit in my ribs, but that just may be because I'm squishing him.
***UPDATE*** I have heard from a credible source with very reliable resources that week 34 is when the baby repositions to head down. So that could be the cause of my thinking he dropped. :)
Other than that, it has been a quiet week.
Oh! I'm definitely posting a picture later because I came up with a really cute outfit. It just confirms that pregnant or not, Ann Taylor Loft is probably my favorite store.


* How far along?: 34 weeks
* Total weight gain: Not nearly the weight gain from last week, thank goodness. Now I'm up 25 pounds. This morning I told Michael I'm glad the pregnancy is coming to an end because I don't think I can take watching the scale go much higher.
* How big is baby?: Jacob weighs about as much as a cantaloupe - 4.75lbs. He's also anywhere from 17.5" to 19". Next week I'll have a more exact number even though the ultrasound estimate can be off a pound either way.
* Maternity clothes?: Yes, however today the only thing maternity I have on are jeans.
* Sleep?: The beginning of the week was tough, but last night was good.
* Best moment this week?: Michael had a cold or something earlier this week and is now feeling better.
* Movement?: Not so many strong movements, but he's active enough at work that when I don't have any motivation I can just sit in my chair and watch my stomach bounce all around.
* Food cravings?: Comfort Foods and back to the red meat
* Labor signs?: BH Contractions are getting a bit stronger. Last night they were once an hour, but nothing serious yet.
* Belly button in or out?: It doesn't really have much room to stretch anymore. I'm losing hope that it won't pop. Another weird fact, if you have an innie and it starts stretching to become an outie, the skin that was once an innie is very soft. I was touching my stomach the other night and had to look down because I felt normal skin and then all of a sudden this really, really soft skin and it freaked me out. Come to find out it was just skin that hadn't really been exposed before. Very strange.
* What I'm looking forward to: Having him here. Both Michael and I are very anxious to have him here now. I know he definitely needs a few more weeks to finish getting ready, but I hope he comes a little early.
**New Question for this week** Because I can, and it is so sweet.
Sweetest Moment of the Week: Yesterday Michael and I were emailing back and forth about what we have left to do before Jacob arrives and he sent me this, "This morning I was driving to work and saw a Dodge [same type of truck as he drives] with a carseat in the back and it got me excited and thinking of Jacob."

And just because I feel like adding more today, I know this is the time that your stomach really starts to grow, but I don't think I can handle it. It's not a size issue. There is just this upper middle spot part of my stomach where the muscles are coming apart and stretching that is really starting to hurt. It used to just burn every now and then, but it is almost constant now whenever I move, the skin is warm and if I touch it I can feel the burn sensation. I would like to some day get some sort of abs back and I think my muscles are at their limit.

33 Weeks - 49 days left

Last weekend was my first shower and so much fun. My mom went over the top and I can't wait to get her pictures from the event. It was great seeing all the family and I can't wait for Jacob to see all the gifts he was spoiled with.
When we got home we started putting stuff away and finally last night put the last pieces that we were able to bring home with us away. He will definitely be the best dressed as his closet already has more clothes than his daddy. However, I don't think he'll ever be able to match my closet :)
Definitely looking forward to napping and taking it easy this weekend. Michael may go golfing Saturday while I have a friend's baby shower to attend.
Oh, I also had a doctor's appointment on Wednesday. This is the first appointment I went to without Michael since they're more frequent now and it is hard for him to get off work. I think my doctor either just takes a while to warm up to you, or likes patients that are closer to the end of the pregnancy more.
He came in to the exam room without leaving me in there to wait very long and was joking around with me about size, shortness of breath and our appointment schedule from here on out. At the next appointment in two weeks I get another ultrasound :) then one more 2-week appointment and after that the weekly appointments start and he could come at any time. Michael is going to the ultrasound appointment, but I already told him there is no need for him to come to the other appointments, but has to promise he will drop everything and race to the hospital if I call to say they're admitting me to labor and delivery.

* How far along?: 33 weeks
* Total weight gain: Not really liking this question anymore, I know it's normal, but it feels strange to gaining this much. 24lbs
* How big is baby?: Jacob weighs about as much as a pineapple - 4lbs. He's also anywhere from 17.5" to just under 19"
* Maternity clothes?: Yes, and now I have more due to my luggage visiting more cities than I did this past weekend.
* Sleep?: I definitely need some.
* Best moment this week?: Our time in Buffalo
* Movement?: He's still stubborn as can be, so nobody else can really feel him move, but a couple nights ago he did his popcorn immitation again and Michael got to feel the whole thing. It went on forever and was hilarious.
* Food cravings?: Comfort Foods
* Labor signs?: Braxton Hicks contractions, but not enough to be considered labor signs.
* Belly button in or out?: I think it will be flat by the end. Really hoping it doesn't pop out.
* What I'm looking forward to: Another ultrasound and I can't wait for him to start using his gifts!

Some People Can't Keep Their Mouth Shut

There is a filter between your brain and mouth that I've learned many people seem to not know how to use, or do not come equiped with one. While normally I find this hilarious and love hearing the outlandish comments made at the completely wrong time, it is starting to get old. Don't get me wrong, I have not been offended by anything that has been said to me during pregnancy; I'm just not finding it quite as funny anymore.
When I found out I was pregnant I only told people that are close to me, including people in the office that were bound to find out. This did not include the store managers I work with since gossip spreads faster than wild fire and I was sure they would find out before I had a chance to process it myself.
1) "Are you pregnant? I didn't even know you were married."
This came from a store manager that most definitely knew I was pregnant, but I have avoided since I've been showing. Also, she knew I was married because she made comments about my wedding since it was the same day as some other store manager's wedding which means nothing since she was never going to be invited anyway. I really wish I would have responded that legally the state of Texas won't let me get married, but that my life partner and I are ecstactic!
2) "How much weight have you gained?"
Seriously? This has come up several times from store managers and sales people. How would you like it if I greeted you and then quickly added, "wow, how much weight have you put on?" Seriously!
3) Your horrible birth story
I'm a light weight, I hate pain. I hate pain enough that once it gets to a certain point my body just shuts down. The whole birth part of pregnancy has worried me since I got over the "I'm pregnant!" joy. With this last trimester I've finally come to a good point and researched the drugs enough to be ready for this whole thing. I've read the birth stories of people I've gotten to know on message boards to know that I can get through it, and I've elected to walk out of the room if there is a birthing video during my class. I'm mentally as ready as I'll be. My plan does not include people I barely know, especially if I don't even know your name, to tell me the horrors of their son's or daughter's birth. Please leave your details to yourself so that I do not have to find a polite way to say that you are creeping out a complete strange, but thanks!
4) Your medical opinion
I have insurance and spend enough money each month to see a doctor with a diploma on his wall and a good track record of delivering babies. Just because you sell baby clothes does not mean you can really have any medical opinion about me or my pregnancy. However, if you had a white lab coat and stethoscope around your neck, I might take you a little more seriously.
And lastly...
5) Breastfeeding
Yes, I realize this is a big debate and blah, blah, blah. There are adults now that are amazing people who were formula fed and amazing people that were breastfed. It's just the way it is and a personal opinion. If I barely know you, I don't find it appropriate to talk to you about whether or not I'll be using my body to feed my child. Perhaps my opinions will change, but until then I'm keeping my mouth shut on the topic and will just stare at you with amazement as you go on, and on, and on, and on about the whole thing. This one especially applies to people that bring this up at a party after they've had a few...because that's what everyone wants to talk about during a night out.

Fun Facts

Found this online and thought it was cute:

Fun Due Date Facts
Zodiac Sign: Aries
Half Birthday: October 8
Birthstone: Diamond
Birth Flower: Daisy or Sweet_Pea Yellow, Red and colorless) -->
Your baby will be born in the Chinese Year of The White Metal Tiger
This time next year your baby will be 43 Weeks Old!
Your baby will start kindergarten in 2015, be old enough to drive a car in 2026, finish high school in 2028, and will graduate from college with the class of 2032, give or take a year.

31 Weeks

The last several weeks of pregnancy are uncomfortable as can be to make you less scared of giving birth - at least in my head that is the only reasonable explinantion. I'm ready to start feeling normal again and not hurt when I walk, or have to sit at a certain angle because Jacob is pushing at my ribs, not feel exhausted most the day, and all that other stuff that seems to be added on a daily basis now.
However, the fun thing with the contractions is that my stomach gets as hard as a rock and it's fun to poke at it then. Simple pleasures.

* How far along?: 31 weeks
* Total weight gain: About 20, right on track!
* How big is baby?: Just over 3 pounds and between 17 and 18 inches.
* Maternity clothes?: Yes, and with the constant cold snap we've been having (40's and low 50's) I'm quickly running through all the winter options.
* Sleep?: So sleepy!
* Best moment this week?: 3D Ultrasound
* Movement?: The movement near my ribs kind of hurts now. I think he's pushed so hard in there that it is starting to bruise a bit. Other than that it is kind of fascinating to sit and watch my stomach bounce around. Also, he moves around for Michael a lot more now, so I'm glad he gets to feel him.
* Food cravings?: Comfort Food. Big, big fan of whipped sweet potatoes
* Labor signs?: Braxton Hicks contractions, but not enough to be considered labor signs.
* Belly button in or out?: I think it will be flat by the end. Really hoping it doesn't pop out.
* What I'm looking forward to: In one week exactly I'll be on a plane to Buffalo!

A Not So Baby Post

I was just finishing my lunch of spaghetti followed by a mini box of Frosted Flakes because the spaghetti wasn't enough when I realized this week is flying by. It got me really excited until I realized, flying by can't be true because it is only Tuesday, and I'll have to see if I still feel the same way by the end of tomorrow.
This week will fly by though. Tomorrow I have video stuff to work on for our big meeting which means time out of the office and I'm going to a play that night too. Thursday is just a normal day, but once you make it through Thursday, Friday is here! No real plans for the weekend, except it is the last weekend of football for many, many weeks thank goodness!
I even think I can say next week will fly by too. On Tuesday or Wednesday, probably Wednesday, our leasing rep will be in office which having visitors always adds to the day, then Thursday mid morning our district manager will be here. Mary only visits once a quarter, and I really enjoy her visits. Plus Thursday night is our Annual Meeting. It is very scaled back from the resort dinner and a show type meeting we had last year, but it is still just as nerve racking getting everything together and speaking in front of a room of people that are convinced the mall is going under. Here's hoping they start drinking more and get better attitudes before I have to stand infront of them all!
On top of getting ready for the meeting and our corporate visitors I'll be packing bit by bit throughout the week...actually, no point in lying, after the meeting on Thursday I'll race home to start packing for our flight on Friday to freezing Buffalo to see family, friends and for an amazing shower.
All of that to say that this month is going to fly by, which will then put us about one month to Jacob's arrival!
Ok, back to work to finish prep for the meeting and finally start adding to my "What I do" binder for everyone to use while I'm out of the office. Woo hoo!

3D Ultrasound

He kept his arms up most the time so it was hard to get a clear face shot but below are some of the 3D photos we got of Jacob this weekend.


The right side of his head with a clear shot of his ear. You can also see a finger since his hand is covering the front of his face.











Front of Jacob's face with his right arm up over the left side and his eye.












His little grin














Open mouth shot, definite proof he has some of his daddy in him.

30 Weeks - 10 to go!

Things to note this week: 1) Last Friday I had the day off so that I could take a couple tests, one for continuing education and one blood test to make sure I don't have gestational diabetes. By Tuesday I found out that I passed both of them! And just to top it off they informed me that I'm not anemic either, so just an extra kudos.
The doctor was also the most talkative he's ever been with me during this week's appointment. For weight and belly size I'm measuring perfectly on the standard schedule. Beginning last Sunday I didn't feel very good so on Monday I wrote down symptoms and times throughout the day and gave the list to the doctor on Tuesday, he didn't laugh or just tell me not to worry, instead he actually took a minute to explain that I'm having Braxton Hicks contractions, which is a way the body prepares for labor and that I'm currently having one to two an hour so all is good, but to call if I start having four an hour.
Also, we finally rescheduled our birthing class for March 13. It will be cutting it close, but at least all the information will be fresh in our minds. I just hope it is more entertaining than the online portion.

* How far along?: 30 weeks
* Total weight gain: About 19 now
* How big is baby?: About 3 lbs and just over 15 1/2 inches from head to toe, about 2/3 of his birth length.
* Maternity clothes?: Yes!
* Sleep?: Back to normal, except now when I wake up in the middle of the night I usually need to go to the restroom.
* Best moment this week?: Finding out that I passed everything and didn't have to take the 3 hour glucose test
* Movement?: It is starting to slow down a bit. No more kicks or jabs, just mostly stretching and little movents. Early this week around 4AM he did the best imitation of popcorn I've ever seen, I don't think there was one part of my stomach he didn't hit.
* Food cravings?: Not really liking food this week - However the Pepsi Throwback is amazing
* Labor signs?: Braxton Hicks contractions, but not enough to be considered labor signs.
* Belly button in or out?: Even Michael notices that it is getting shallower each day. My stomach really feels like it can't grow anymore.
* What I'm looking forward to: The next ultrasound!

Cute Find!

Yesterday I felt the need to go to Target. Although I didn't find the stuff I remembered I originally needed, I did find the cutest piggy bank for Jacob's room.

29 Weeks

This week has been big for three reasons -
1) I've discovered there are a million things out there to drink besides just water with lemon. I need a break from the water, I'm fine drinking it at work, but it gets boring. Our fridge is now packed with Fresca, Hawaiian Punch Berry Lemonade, and flavors from Gatorade I never knew existed. Did you know there is a mango flavor? Also, kool-aid makes little tablets you can drop in your water for instant kool-aid. These should all keep me entertained for a while.
2) I was a big girl this week! Yesterday I went for my glucose tolerance test all by myself. I checked in, they gave me the bottle of sugary syrup to down in five minutes, then sat in the recliners they have hidden at the lab for an hour. This is where the big girl part comes in - I didn't call Michael to come to the lab when it came time for them to take my blood, and because they were so packed and busy at the lab I didn't even tell them that I have a tendency of fainting when someone takes my blood and needed to use the bed instead of the chair. It was the same lady who has been so sweet taking it before, so I just trusted her and went to the room with only a chair. The only bad part of not telling her I'm not good with needles is she used a normal sized one and it really hurt, but not as bad as taking the tape and gauze off my arm later. So, that is why I'm a big girl this week!
3) The nursery is ready! All painted, all furniture built, all ready! We need to add a little decor besides Michael's sports stuff that he's so happy to keep in there, but that is already in the works. Jacob probably has the most expensive decor right now including tons of signed baseballs and a bat, framed signed jerseys, a really cool UT print from when they won the championship and Astros thing with a piece of home plate and some other stuff from when we should have gone to the World Series, but Pujols stopped us. Below are pictures of the pretty final product!

View from the door, with the painted wall and trim.








View from the crib side of the room.








Scoot likes to lay in my lap and had kept circling around whenever I sat in the glider. When I went in to take pictures he decided he wanted to try out the glider. The movement freaked him out and it is a bit too small for him. Hopefully he realizes all furniture is not for him.




His closet is already starting to fill up! I finally found a use for those space saver hangers that I thought would help my closet. The wood bars in our closets are too big for tiny hangers, but these work perfectly.




* How far along?: 29 Weeks and 1 day to be technical
* Total weight gain: Still at 17 pounds
* How big is baby?: About 2.75 lbs and just over 15 inches from head to toe. He won't grow in length much more, but will keep put on weight at a steady pace. There's not much room for him anymore and my stomach feels like it can't stretch anymore. In fact this week I learned that the intense burning sensation I get right below my ribs on the right side is my ab muscles separating.
* Maternity clothes?: Yes! Yesterday I tried wearing one of my old tank tops with a button sweater over it and had to constantly keep pulling my jeans up and my shirt down to not show off my stomach to everyone.
* Sleep?: Back to normal, except now when I wake up in the middle of the night I usually need to go to the restroom.
* Best moment this week?: Working with Michael all week on the nursery. It was tiring, but a ton of fun.
* Movement?: The other night he was kicking/punching on both my left and right sides at the same time and then yesterday he must have been jumping up and down because I could feel him by my ribs and the bottom of my stomach at the same time.
* Food cravings?: Still a lot more beef than I ever ate before
* Labor signs?: Keeping a look out, but none. It's strange being far enough that I'm supposed to watch for this now.
* Belly button in or out?: Definitely getting shallow - I don't really want it to pop...I like my innie!
* What I miss: Nothing really
* What I'm looking forward to: Getting started on the online portion of our birthing class.

And just to make this post extremely long...
This week the hospital's educator department called me to say that our 2/6 child birth class had been canceled, but they could move me to one of the other February dates. The dates I had to chose from were 2/13 and 2/27, both shower days. I explained that neither of those worked for me, so they are supposed to call me back once the March schedule is done and hopefully I can get into an early one in March. I just would really like the hospital tour.

Picture Time!

Woohoo! I'm posting pictures!!
First a long awaited belly picture. He's definitely starting to take his toll on me and my belly is growing more and more each day. Hopefully I won't be giant by the end of this. Not the best of pictures, but it will work.
Secondly, we got some work done on the nursery this weekend. We cleaned out the whole room which made Michael happy because he found his Tupac CD and other amazing treasures. Michael was amazing and did most of the painting below because the smell of the paint made me exhausted. The colors look amazing and I'm so excited to get everything into place.

28 Weeks

There really isn't much to update on this week. We had an arctic blast come through, and although temps are back above freezing, it is still pretty cold and cloudy. I'm definitely ready for the spring to hurry on in so I can break out the open toed shoes again.
This weekend is busy with two birthday parties, picking out paint because we both finally decided we didn't love the color we chose first, putting together nursery furniture, and cleaning out the nursery. Definitely not a lay on the couch all day type of weekend.
However, there will be no cleaning except for some laundry because our housekeeper started yesterday and she is so amazing! I'm going to love coming home every other Thursday from now on :)
** I'm bad about taking pictures to post, but even Michael has started saying he wants to start taking them, so by tonight I shold get better about taking and posting some. **

* How far along?: 28 weeks - 12 weeks until the due date
* Total weight gain: Definitely gaining faster now even though I'm really cutting out the sweets. Up to 17 pounds now, still normal, but a bit scary.
* How big is baby?: About 2.25 lbs and almost 15 inches from head to toe. He's definitely filling up my tummy now.
* Maternity clothes?: Yes and normal sweaters a size too large
* Sleep?: I've been snoring this past week because I've been so stuffy; just glad Michael thinks it is hilarious. Otherwise, normal sleeping for me.
* Best moment this week?: We've spent a lot of time with friends this week, and I actually went to the bar last Friday night. It was nice relaxing and playing shuffleboard like we used to do. I'm so happy to have friends that changed their night to go to non-smoking bars so I could join in.
* Movement?: I'm very interested in how he is positioned right now since I fell most the movement on my lower left side and upper right. Not quite sure how he's hitting both sides. Not so much the crazy kicking movement of weeks past since it is getting tight in there, but I can feel most of his movement now. Last night he even tried to tell Scoot to shush by kicking every time he barked.
* Food cravings?: Still a lot more beef than I ever ate before
* Labor signs?: Keeping a look out, but none. It's strange being far enough that I'm supposed to watch for this now.
* Belly button in or out?: Definitely getting shallow - I don't really want it to pop...I like my innie!
* What I miss: Breathing
* What I'm looking forward to: I didn't think I was going to do this, but Carter's has a good sale going on this weekend and I'm really wanting to go and buy some outfits. So today at lunch, I'm looking forward to shopping for Jacob. Also, I'm really excited for my showers - it all just seems real now.

Welcom 3rd Tri (27 Weeks)

Officially Monday is the start of third tri, but I think this is close enough to celebrate.
This week we discovered another food that Jacob loves. Spaghetti! After we had it for dinner this week he bounced all around and ended the night with a hard as can be kick that even Michael noticed was harder than normal. Then after leftovers for lunch he spent the whole afternoon kicking around until I got in my car to go home. Nothing else this week has gotten him going like that.
There was a doctor's appointment, but nothing really happened at that. The heartbeat is 147 bpm, and my stuffiness is completely normal. It will just be nice when I can breathe again. Oh! There will be another ultrasound around 34 weeks. Our next appointment is January 26 and I have to go and take my glucose tolerance test a week before that. I can't believe we're in the final stretch.

* How far along?: 27 Weeks
* Total weight gain: About 14 pounds
* How big is baby?: I'm so confused on this, it changes with everything I read. I know he's just over 2 pounds though and perhaps around 14 inches with his legs stretched out.
* Maternity clothes?: Yes - With this bitter cold snap I'm layering everything possible to stay warm.
* Sleep?: If I could actually breathe then sleeping wouldn't be too bad.
* Best moment this week?: All the movement after spaghetti
* Movement?: Every day!
* Food cravings?: None really, just the usual I guess.
* Labor signs?: None now, but the doctor gave me information on pre-term labor signs to watch out for now.
* Belly button in or out?: It's stretching and getting shallow
* What I miss: Strong medicine, I never realized how much I loved instant relief
* What I'm looking forward to: Just getting things ready still. The whole weekend should pretty much be below freezing, so a good weekend to stay in and work on stuff.

26 Weeks and a few days

Not too big of a week. Just the normal I guess. My nails and hair are both growing extremely fast and strong which is amazing but starting to get on my nerves a bit. I feel I'm so overdue for a hair cut and constantly having to file and clip my nails.
Plus I'm extremely tired of the acid reflux that is just getting worse and worse. During the day Tums can handle it, but at night I feel like I'm going to burn a hole in my throat and the only thing I've found that can keep it down until I fall asleep is extra strength Mylanta. It tastes like spoiled milk, but is the best thing I've found.
This is my last week in 2nd tri. Next week I move on to the last trimester, otherwise known as the end of the honeymoon phase...which means I'm a little nervous of what's to come. I've been lucky so far with most of the symptoms, so hopefully we keep on track.
Tomorrow is another doctor's appointment and I can't wait to hear the heartbeat again. It should be a quick appointment since there are no tests scheduled, just some questions I want to ask about being sick for the past couple weeks and what symptoms I need to watch out for. Nothing big. We'll also fill out paper work for my gestational diabetes test that I guess I just come in whenever and do. Just happy it isn't tomorrow so I can still have strawberry shortcake for dessert tonight :)


* How far along?: 26 weeks 3 days
* Total weight gain: 13 pounds, right on schedule with the gain a pound a week from now on plan the books say I should be on.
* How big is baby?: Still about 2 pounds. I guess the measurement I was going by before was crown to rump, but everywhere I look for size now has crown to toes, so that is the reason for this giant increase...Jacob is about 14 inches long. Which explains why he won't get out of my rib cage.
* Maternity clothes?: Yes
* Sleep?: I've never been a good sleeper, so this just isn't a good question for me.
* Best moment this week?: He stopped moving a lot for a couple days, but is back to jiggling all around which makes me extremely happy.
* Movement?: In the lower part of my right ribs I can feel a mass of him just lodged there with movement every now and then. At night I can feel jabs on my lower left side. It would be nice to see his actual position.
* Food cravings?: Today is salsa
* Labor signs?: None for a long time
* Belly button in or out?: I think it might actually be getting shallower
* What I miss: Looking skinnier in pictures
* What I'm looking forward to: Our birthing class and registering for the hospital. We got the packet in the mail this weekend for the online portion of our class!